Ideal Fantacy

The world varies. The way of life varies. A view on them varies.

Ppl vary. Thoughts vary. Reactions to them vary.

Ppl r described as insane, out of mind when they do things stupid or somehow not in a admitted way. I used to trust wht was from the deep intuition or so called intuitive reaction. Coz somehow things were determined by its only final object - a good and then better result in study. Any logical efforts on trying to work out where i might go and how i might go there were usually pointless. The only thing that came along after one achievement was always to achieve more and more.

Instead of suffering from making responsible choice, a doomed man follows his intuition, or more appropriately, his self-confessed responsibility, which in reality is little consideration, bare reasoning and hardly understanding of wht he is doing.

When the world is varying and ppl r varying, intuition only brings empty and loneliness.

I have become believing mastering feelings would ultimately lead to a better choice of object and means to achieve it.

What a doomed man..

坐在小桌旁边做模型，连续做了4个小时了。。现在凌晨1点一刻，家里一点安休的迹象也没有，因为大家都接近考试了，没一个人能这么早就睡着吧。。

自己塞着耳机iTunes在shuffle。。。很多以前喜欢听的歌。。特别是最近1，2年里听过更有印象。。因为自己有个习惯，电脑打开就喜欢开着歌随便播，有时候一段时间选几首来回听，所以那段时间做的事情，只要再听到那几首歌就会想起来。很真切，就像正在做一样。。音乐的魔力真是大。

想到坐在221里，打WOW。。想到跟兄弟们上课睡觉。。逃课。。越想越多。。想到你们一个个从单身变成双，真是有趣。。不过这是插曲。。最珍贵的还是彻夜卧谈一起复习的情景。

现在想翻照片看看，可是才想起竟然没有我们4个一起的照片，有的也只是班级的合影。

再过2周就回去了。希望你们一切都好